Paradox is the name of a song and probably some other underground band Saturday, Jan 26 2008 

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Old Juliana. I just found out that Juliana mean ‘youth’, ‘joy’ etc. Regarding where this came from in the first place…it was purely thoughtless. I was doing my usual nonsensical writing when I felt like putting in ‘old’, and a noun had to follow that. Tada, Juliana. And it sounded like a band name. Pretty cool. Juliana sounds kinda girly, but more feminine than cutesy, and old balanced it out, like…grunge romantic? Or just old school wannabe.

Youth that is advanced in age…?

Oh, yea, that photo is there for the heck of it. I took it during the bus ride to VCH for the band’s 10th annual concert. Yeah, old shot from sec 2, but I love it even until now. I really have a thing for cities. CBD, you know. Say it wasn’t really an ideal shot, with raindrops and all, but what makes me so proud of it is the composition. I even used it for my handphone’s wallpaper for a year or so. Yes, taken with my trusty old phone that survived a one storey drop. The tall buildings clustered on one side, the short ones covering the other, the tiny cranes (or whatever they are) in between, the lamp posts spread out along the road, the uncluttered traffic, the simple cars, especially the one nearest to the viewer (makes me feel like it’s some sort of a movie and that I’m following it) and even the gloomy sky. City life, the rush that’s not there, yet. A lucky shot on a turning vehicle. I rather put these kind of stuff up than that pretty little flower I shot in NZ. It was one of those types that had a very clear subject at the foreground with a blurred background. Looks nearly professional. Yea, me being egoistic and not sorry about it.

I might be drawing something soon ^( ^-^)> We love smileys.

Headache Tuesday, Jan 22 2008 

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His head hurts, but he’s not really having a headache. I’m the one having a headache. Proportion and anatomy are inaccurate, but I don’t care unless it’s drawn from observation, in which case this isn’t. It’s kind of stylised. Look at the shoulder. I wanted the left hand to look like it was really tugging desperately, with the finges really stretched apart and with veins showing and everything – I failed. Hand’s a bit too big as well, like in some of those shoujo manga. The left one I mean.

Having to explain equals failure to express. This isn’t abstract, so intepretation shouldn’t go too wild. I don’t know how he got the ring on his neck. Someone put it there. He’s pretty distressed about it, as you can see. Or if you even bother to see. He looks like some kind of prisoner. I suppose he is. Oh, can you see the nipple? I’ve never drawn nipples before, so that dark spot on the chest is the nipple, in case people don’t notice it…not that there’s much to notice…but people generally miss many details, which is upsetting.

The colour’s saturated on purpose. Gives the old paper scroll look. Also makes it look a bit burned. Better than boring ol’ white and blue. Yea, the scanned image makes the lines bluish. Blueish. Blue-ish. Blue lines, whatever. Old and burned…

The right pupil’s quite visible, while the left’s rolling around. It’s disappearing under the lid.

Say ‘emo’, and I will be pissed. No kidding. I have nothing against ‘emo’, it’s the way people say it.

It could use some good detail, but I don’t feel that it’s right to add on to an imaginary drawing that was of spontaneous birth.

Enjoy, and be a sadist.

I hate the thought that this page is going to be analysed, judged, and graded. I really need that Lamborghini. Hallejulah.

Developmental process tracking Saturday, Jan 12 2008 

I just want to get in a Lamborghini and drive far far away in full speed. Fall off a cliff and land up in space.

I want to draw, not make art. Making art has become a responsibility. Responsibility is for survival.

Is survival a responsibility? How annoying and boring.

There wouldn’t be an artwork up anytime soon, because I doodle too much.